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Monday, October 19, 2009

" todos tenemos que vivir para mañana. pero si mañana no viene? que hacemos?"

"We all have to live for tomorrow, but what if tomorrow doesn't come? what do we do?"

Recently a young man i once knew was killed in a stabbing. I don't exactly know what happened but his death made me think. I've always lived a sheltered life. I don't pay attention to the crime in my city because, yes its good to be informed but why would i want to live in fear so i just simply rather not hear it. But when its all over myspace and facebook u cant help but to get informed trying to sniff out what happened.

Crazy shit happenes in one nite. We find a person well be long time friends with. We realize what friends are truely true to us. We may lose or gain a friend in one nite. we may discover what is to become of us if we continue on our paths. simply said Shit happens!

rawrrrr im stuck on what to say tralalalala

I always fear one of my loves ones is going to die, yes im usually thinking about it. I don't know why but I do. is that normal? to think about death on a daily biases? I think it is since its always around us. How can u not think about it? its always staring us in the effen face! >.<

I get goosebumps thinking of which friend or family member will go 1st. Will i make it to my 19th bday? that is only 11 days away. Its a sad morbid subject but i cant help it.

We have to live for tomorrow but will tomorrow will come? what will happen to our loved ones if we dont make it tomorrow? what will they do at my funeral? will i be remember in a good light? will i be remembered as a bitch? will i be remember as the caring friend? Did i have a good run? did i live up to all i could live to? could i have done more?

I cant get it out of my head that i know. no knew! someone that is no longer breathing the same air i do. its sad to know they have taken their last breath. there last glimpse of the world, and those last moments probably where not the best images to leave with.