Are you kidding me?

how ignorant do you think i am?

do i seem to have an addictive personality?

I drink and smoke cigarettes.

thats all i do.

ive had pot before me and wasted it so i didnt have to smoke it.

I dont care for drugs. cheezy as line but im high on life.

im insane enough to find everything hysterical.

why would i need drugs.

they compare me to the extended family. and look at what they grew up with! drugs and violence and broken homes! you move us out the suburbs to stay away from that.

for that i thank you.

but you being so scared of everything is making me panic, makes me 'lash out'

makes me want to crave the drugs and idiotic moments they had.

but ill never do it, i know it.

i dont understand.

yes i fucked up once.

but why continue to live in fear of the monster i might become.

if ive never even meet those demons.

im a monster but pocket size it fits into this scene.

its not a demon.

i have no demons.

i have pocket sized monsters.

its called American spirit and liquor.

i can control them.

tell me when have i been out of control with them?!

i know when to quit.

please stop living in fear of what i might become.

let me be me and embrace it.

i know when to stop and when ive had enough.

stop being a drama queen.

Phew....


im trying to be honest


but i feel like im walking on eggshells

please please

dont blow up in my face


im trying not to lie as much as i would

its called being 98% honest

cuz 2% of the time you need to twist it alil ;D


was honest with one... now with the other =X

hmm

odd

for once I dont feel lost.
I'm okay where my life is at.

I'm happy.

I'm finally enjoying each day as it comes with the ups and downs.

just need to enjoy the ride

so 21

doesnt seem so bad