Pathetic

I found my Year book from '08
OVER HALF THE PEOPLE WHO SIGNED i dont even talk to anymore

WOW
thats horrid.

o.o
like maybe of all the people who actually signed it i only speak to about a good hand full of them

fawk where did i go wrong.

hell

Do you ever feel like running away?
like taking everything you own and just take off!
travel the world, doing odd jobs!
Live out of a suitcase!

I am always wonder if i'll ever get the balls to do that.
Will i?
Will i find what i want if AND when i leave?
One day i wish to go to the airport buy a flight ticket
"ONE WAY TO NEW YORK (JFK) AIRPORT PLEASE!"
something about the city calls to me.
not the lights
something else.
i think its the IDEA of "THE CITY THAT NEVER SLEEPS"
oh how i WOULD love if im hungry at 3 in the damn morning i can go out and grab a bite to eat.
how if i want to watch a movie. I HOPE the movie theaters are open in the middle of the nite
just knowing the city is ALIVE WELL INTO THE MORNING sounds sooo awesome.
maybe some day i can do it.
maybe <3

breakfasts with my sister =)

Friend ships people aren't always perfect. its sad to see u think so much of people to only realise u are nothing to them

Some times I like to pretend that im a secret spy agent. lol i like to imagine what i would do in certain situations. i love to look at objects n imagen how they can be weapons. lol

i'm excited... Nov '10 Conan will have his show on TBS. then on Jan '11 Daniel Tosh aka tosh.0 will have a late nite show on there too. so TBS starting NOVEMBER will be the place for late nite cuz you can't forget they have the Mexican... George Lopez =] so no more crying for good late nite TV!!

i had never had a self esteem issue to where i felt depressed about who i am. until now, high school and even middle school i didn't give a shit about who i hung out with, what clothes i wore, or even the shape of my body.

but now, that Im so close to being 20, i find myself depressed about who i see before in the mirror. where did this backwards persona emerge from? now im being like everyone else, what i worried of becoming while in high school, i have become.

a regular girl with body image issues....