twenty-one

shiitttttt

my birthday is coming up in about two months.

fawk,

I'm still in the same situation with more shit making my boat sink.
awesome I'm so proud of myself! YEAH! right!?

oh and April. i had high hopes for you!
but NADA! its alllll slllooowwwwlllyyyy moving along.

wish i could blink and just be in a better place.

but then again i would miss out on this misery and not learn anything. I would be the same person i am today.
And frankly  I love myself but dislike alot of things.

My fuck it attitude is great. I love that. Its awesome cuz shit can happen and by the end i just say MEH! OH WELL! 
........

Changes

Its that time of year again. where i reflect on my life see where im going. what have i run away from. What has changed. What has been the same. Im biggest hypocrite i know.

Are we a product of many outcomes?
or are we following a path that was set in stone?

I feel out of place
Something is off
I feel so exhausted
My body feels restless
My eyes are heavy with sleep
What is wrong?
Why this?
Hmm

system failer

We are just floating, some people are just hard wired. we are drifting.

its sad but its true we cant have peace without war.

Live to die.
Die to Live.
Life is to war as love is to peace.

We are humans we need to decided if its us or them, just to simple to survive,

if you want to live we must sacrifice our self and others.

enough of this illusion, we can not be one... but we must be individuals inside a unit. 

we have to do evil to be good its the sad part of life.

when it comes to last moment. who will conquer the world?

The clock is ticking and time is winding down.

who will you be?

the winner? or the loser?

how does this system failer effect you?

will you be here tomorrow?

did you survey?

how will it be different this time?

we are young creatures.

we are going to make mistakes.

our bodies do not evolve but we adapt and our minds create our path.

we are obsessive.

we need balance

the correct justice.

how can we make the perfect world when we are not perfect.

error error error *system reboot*


-colab  w./ Ivan Ramos

Life is Short, Why arent you Living it?!

WHAT ARE WE?

EVEN ON A CLOUDY NIGHT I CAN SEE STARS
WHEN EVERYONE IS DOWN
I LOOK UP I SEE THE STARS BEHIND THE CLOUDS

SOME DAY WE'LL ALL DIE
ITS NOT OVER UNTIL
WE'RE SIX FEET UNDER
OR WE ARE DUST
ITS OVER

LIFE IS STRANGE. WE ARE JUST THE ACTORS. THE BEAUTY IS THAT WE CAN ALWAYS CHANGE, EVEN WITH ALL THE HARD WORK

WE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD BUT DOES EVERYONE WANT THE CHANGE?
WE ALL NEED TO PUT THE EFFORT. THE GREATER THINGS IN LIFE REQUIRES SACRIFICE
ARE WE WILLING TO DO THAT?
WE DON'T WANT TO PUT IN THE EFFORT?
WE ARE A LAZY SOCIETY. WE TALK SO WE CAN HIDE FROM THE DEMONS. SO THEY DON'T SNATCH OUR LIVES AWAY, AS WE DID TO OUR DREAMS.
HOW MANY OF US CAN SAY WE ARE LIVING THE DREAM?

 -colab  w./ Ivan Ramos