I became a major screw up this semester. I let my emotions fog my vision. I allowed my self not to do anything productive for my self. I became so passive. I completly wish i could go back and shake my self awake. But that has passed. I can only look fwd. Hopefully after summer i have changed for the better. Hopefully i have a job. So i must become more responsible. Less passive. More motivated. Maybe I'll finally find what i need. Possibly I'll change. That is too much to ask for of just one summer. But maybe I'll finally grow up.